Life Blessings

I have been thinking a lot about my loved ones recently. It all stems from a lady I know who died of cancer, leaving behind two young girls, a husband, and countless family members. So sad. And yet, that is how God ordained it to be.

Our pastor said something in church today about how nothing is really ours, and it made me think about how God gives and takes away. I couldn't help but think about my kids as he said this. I was holding my little Jesse in my arms and couldn't imagine not having him.

I couldn't imagine not playing with Levi--hugging him, kissing him, even disciplining him. The thought of not being able to kiss him before bed every night makes my heart ache.

All that to say that I trust God with all that is in me. I will pray for my entire life that my kids are cared for, that my husband is happy. I don't know how long any of us will be here, but I just pray that we will live our lives well, and that we will enjoy each other while we are alive. Life is too much of a blessing to squander on meaningless things. Your i-phone is not more important than your family. Play time should not be sacrificed for checking facebook.

I love my family. Just the thought of them makes me smile, and the thought of them hurting brings tears to my eyes.

May I be a mother and wife who does all I can for those that I love!

Happy New Year

Our year has been beyond chaotic. Somehow, it seems almost impossible to stay up on house cleaning, grading, cooking and grocery shopping for my family, and playing with Levi. However, it is about to get more chaotic with number 2 arriving in ~6 weeks.

Is it really possible that he is coming already??? Eesh.... I very much feel pregnant in the fact that bending over is becoming more of a chore every day, but the reality of having another child is very hard for me to comprehend.

I love that boy. He is going to be such a wonderful big brother.

On a different note, I don't believe in New Year's Resolutions, but I have a few things that I would like to improve in my own life, so why not share and be held accountable.

#1 Goal is to read through the Bible in a year. It has been four years since I have done it, so I would love to do that again.

#2 I would like learn to cook healthier meals for my family. My mom is my hero, as she always has delicious, healthy meals.... so this year I am going to try harder and put more time into meals and not just throw the same things together at the last minute.

#3 What resolution list wouldn't be complete without a weight loss goal? My best friend in NC is getting married this summer, which means I have only 2 months after baby comes and I can actually exercise again to get in somewhat decent shape. Although I will tell you my other long-term goal is to run a half-marathon in October--I am excited for both, but I know with my sweet tooth and laziness it will be a challenge.

Those are my plans for this year. Hope your New Year was wonderful and wish you the best on fulfilling any resolutions you made! :)